Greetings:
This is a personal letter from my spirit to yours. I am very open here. No podcast, no article announcement. I need an “inner circle”- a team of prayer warriors to see me through the biggest transition I’ve ever made. And that’s saying a lot!
I need friends out there in cyberspace to join with me in the Spirit for what I must do. But also so that you can share your prayer requests regarding what you know He wants you to do. I am not asking for a one-sided relationship.
Years ago when I had my 501C Corporation, I had a team of prayer warriors that stood with me and fought with me in the Spirit as I went forward to other countries with the Good News of Messiah, the baptism into the Spirit, healing, deliverance, and the teaching of the Word, which included Torah. Now, I am preparing for my greatest of all assignments before Messiah returns. But, the situation where I am, though always depressing and serious, is now more critical – that I leave.
Where I am in the North Atlanta area, after three years, I have no friends, and no face to face fellowship, except rarely with my youngest daughter who lives an hour’s drive from where I am.
As I have for a lot of the last 17 years of ministry, I am still staying with a dark and demonic, oppressing situation a lot of the time. It’s reaching a peak as I prepare to go forward with Yahuwah. The enemy knows us and knows the threat we pose to their plans. Do you frighten the kingdom of darkness because of your Light? I hope so…
The last three years, I’ve only taken two trips outside of going to Fort Worth for Passover and Yom Teruah with Derek and Rivkah – to Canada and once to Israel. I’ve had very-needed cataract surgery. I’ve had dental surgery. I’ve had weekly chiropractic help to get my neck to turn to the right and left, and my back put back in place regularly to relieve as much of the pain of pinched nerves as possible. Physically, I still walk with a cane, and in a lot of pain, but I still walking – HalleluYah!
I still spend hours a day researching, writing, posting articles, doing podcasts, teaching, counseling, befriending, encouraging others, like yourselves. But, it’s all online. I teach into cyberspace. I had a dream about it in 1992, long before I had a computer. The dream had two parts. Just recently through having a computer and beginning to podcast, and understanding some quantum physics, I finally understand the dream and its timing. Being on my Mikvah list, you are part of the unseen audience I was speaking to while standing up in the air.
For 17 years where I stay, after I was found to be guarding the Torah, I have been prohibited from speaking about anything to do with the Word, or Abba, or anything that is exciting to me about what He is doing, or what is exciting in general. I have a small room, for which I am grateful, to sleep and do my work for Abba. I must stay in this small room 90% of each week. I am taken to the chiropractor once a week, to dentist appointments to do with the surgery, and to Walmart and Aldi – getting out 2-3 times a week. But, I must not speak in the car. I must remain silent unless spoken to. So, I virtually live in a vacuum, in an empty dry place with little water of life except for what He gives me. He is very personal with us, for which I am grateful!
No, I am not complaining!!! I am not on a downer!!! I am not being critical or judgmental or unloving!!! I am just presenting why I need a prayer team!
My entire soul and spirit (spirit man), are untied with my Master. I know that I must get to a place where I don’t have to do spiritual warfare every day and night, at least within the walls of where I stay.
I am so open with you because a few of you have been so open with me!
You, or ones you love, are in similar situations. Some of you have told me of loneliness because you have no one to fellowship with. Some of you have told me that your children are standing against you, even keeping you from seeing your grandchildren, because you guard the Torah. I’m not talking just about Americans. I’m talking about people from other nations telling me of the same problems. I shared quite a bit of my situation in the two articles recently on Narcissism. I did not write like I’m writing here, but I shared the nature that I live with. It is totally opposite of my nature. There comes a time, when “enough is enough!” And, my time has come. Am I making this up? Am I a crotchety old lady? NO! Others who love Yahuwah and Yahushua have come to visit, and felt the oppression as they walk through the door.
I suppose most of you know that the enemy’s forces know us!!! They are pushing in on us to destroy us. The great onslaught is nearly in full effect, preparing the way for the anti-messiah/Beast.
However, first, in order to destroy us, they have to take away our joy and peace. Once the joy leaves, then the peace, then the sound mind becomes angry, righteously so at first, but then bitterness takes over, and irrational thinking of the enemy takes over more. This is the goal. This is the process to reach it. I do not want to go down the enemy’s path, and I warn you not to do it either. I write this as an epistle to your re-born spirit.
I need people to pray for me, not in general, but specifically. The only way you’ll know how to pray specifically is if I share with you and give you updates.
So, what I am asking, is what I asked when I started the Word Fellowship International in Texas in 1990, upon my ordination. I am asking for you who want to join me to see me through this transition which begins TODAY. Today is June 21st, the Summer Solstice. I have confirmation from others that this is a transition day into the placement of His end-time remnant in their positions to go forth before Messiah comes. I realize that I may only hear from four or five of you, but that’s enough to break the power of the enemy. I want warriors, those who know spiritual warfare and are bold in counteracting the advance of the enemy. Let me know your petition, too. If you feel you have an assignment and the Spirit has been preparing you, let me know.
First of all, getting a car is of utmost priority. I have been unable to drive a car to drive at this point no one I stay with wants to take me to a car lot. If you in my area-let me know. It was last June 2017 that I drove a car. My youngest daughter who lives north of me about an hour says she will take me to a car dealership. But, I move with Abba, and He wants me to go soon. My deadline is my birthday in the third week of July for getting a car.
Upon flying to Texas, where I lived for 23 years, in March for Passover, I was sitting in a window seat. I looked out at the clouds. Abba spoke to me: “You’re going home.” I knew He meant Texas. Since 1985, Texas has been home to me. I left to go to Florida with the family I stay with now, then to Georgia. I did not want to move, but I had to or have nowhere to live. But, now, it is imperative if I want to go forward at all.
I need fellowship face to face. I need a place of peace, where I am not treated as one loathed, to be simplistic about it. If you’ve read my autobiography Touching the Eternal, you’ll understand more. I know some of you understand now! It has taken me 51 years of education to understand 100% what I got myself into in 1966. Back then Satanism, witchcraft, Satanic Ritual Abuse – well, these things were not heard of in Christian circles, and if they were, it was all scary movie stuff – not real. But, I bless brother Russ Dizdar and his book The Black Awakening that helped me understand what has been going on since Nazi Germany and Josef Mengele, and then the CIA, etc. to the minds of children and how they are fragmented and mind programmed, filled with demons, and aligned to the kingdom of darkness in the supernatural realm. It helps to understand. But, we do not have to live with it, not if we’re on our way forward with the Master! If our nature is that of His, then we are totally a different type of being than humans without the true new birth. Have you noticed that?
It is painful to go forward with Abba. You want to see people join you with joy like you have. But, since we crossed a threshold on Yom Teruah 2015/2016, the dark kingdom has begun its final invasion of earth. This is not hocus pocus, this is factual reality, as Messiah actually pinpointed that time period to His disciples in Matthew 24, Luke 21.
So, you with His love, you with empathy, you bold ones, let us join together for our freedom to be part of that Daniel 11:32 remnant, not just spiritually, but actually as the time comes for it.
My goal for getting a car, getting to Texas, finding a place to stay, and bringing all my possessions there too, is no later than late Fall. This is not an easy decision. I’ve put it off for a few years. I used to travel so much, and even had my own apartment in Jordan 8 years, and ½ of each year in Israel.
But, my finances are low, and always have been. Money comes as I do what He wants me to do. I have no fear! I am free from fear!
Yes, I need finances and helpers for this move! He helps us through His helpers, Psalm 118 says. Getting a place to stay, at the least, an efficiency apartment will be expensive. Right now, I get around $200-$400 a month to live on for a month. Through the years, even when I had nearly a thousand names on my address list, only about 1% ever shared finances with me.
However, when I’ve needed help with the cataract surgery and the dental surgery, about 7-10 people responded and the bills got paid. I walk by faith, but have also spend a lot of my life working in a secular job. I am not lazy!
So, please pray with me that those who read my articles and have for years, will have a desire to share their love “in word and deed.” I realize that today human nature is so corrupted that if an older person needs help, they run the other way. But, hey – I am only age 20 inside. This outer shell will be renewed, hopefully sooner than later. I am healthy and full of energy. I love life, and I want to use it to serve my Master!
The first step is having a small team of prayer warriors whom I can share with, and update, who will pray as He directs, not from personal thinking, but only as revealed by the Spirit to your spirit. Answer quickly… I want my team united quickly!
Blessings and shalom, in His love
Yedidah
June 21, 2018